'In-to the Night, and through the Rain....'

It's funny, really, how things always seem to get worse. You never think that things can get any worse than they already are, but then they do. But, I really have no right to complain; I'm not the one wh's getting the worst of it. I wish our roles were reversed, almost. If there was anything I could do... and there is, really, but I don't know how it'll work out. I don't know whether anything will go wrong, but if something does I have a feeling it'll blow up in my face big time. And with my track record, I'm not exactly confident.... But, I have to do it. I have to do everything I can to make things better for her, even if it makes things worse for me. I just need to find a compromise, of sorts. My heart is telling me, go for it, take the fall, but my brain is saying, step back a bit. I don't know if I can go all the way with this. I'll do what I need to do, but I can't go too far, can't make things worse than they already are. Which, unfortunately, is a far-too-likely prospect. But al least if I screw up it'll only be on me; I won't do anything to make things worse for her. I dunno; I just hope things turn out okay.